Morning Musing on Being a Counterproductive Big Back
Luvlies, Good morning. Actually I’m writing this at exactly 12 noon. My morning got away from me and I’ve only had time for daydreams/ thoughts until now. Right, so let’s start with ballet and how hard today’s class was. I felt every bit of my buttocks activated and was walking like a peacock post class. Mind you, there is absolutely no pain in body, ‘cept in my bewbies (which are getting larger everyday :(( ) .
It doesn’t take many classes for me to get back into the groove of things, because I have the most intense muscle memory. One week I can barely do the splits; the next week my leg is at 180º. What is new is the cording that’s happening in my arms from the lipo. It seems to be getting worse as the weeks go on, so I’ll book an osteo appointment to manage it.
I do all of these productive, smart things to support my recovery and personal growth, like dance classes and taking care of my spirit. One would think I would ride that high for as long as I can. But not me! I immediately do the most counterproductive thing to cancel out all the juicy good stuff.
After class, I joyfully bopped home as I was on the phone with my cousin. Life was soaring and nothing could break my stride UNTIL I saw the tangerine coloured sign approaching… I…I-I couldn’t resist. Maybe it was due to not eating something before ballet, or having a rough sleep. Whatever was going on in that moment brought me to the Devil’s Den – aka. Popeye’s.
I ordered today’s special: a 3 piece and fries, no dipping sauces and it wasn’t even 11am. Yuck. Even I couldn’t look at myself as I put my order in. All that work this morning, building my core strength and posture, only to do some big back eating and stuff my face, while kiki-ing with family.
The shame. The horror. The delicious Louisiana spicy sauce drizzled over top the crispy skin…
We will never be free.
…and that’s time. Still here? Share your thoughts on self-sabotage below.
See you tomorrow Luvlies!
xoxo Luv Laney Luv
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Morning Musing is a pomodoro-timed, free thought experiment to get back into the swing of things. No Ai added.
